February 2009
Nights filled with longer hours
HEY! Another song stuck in my head. Another beautiful day with the sun in my face. Bored in class with teejay looking at me and Jovin still having a dirty mind. Teejay and I just added more moves to our handshake. Muay Thai shit.
“Fight for your dream and make it a reality”
Teach me how to fly
So much stuff on my mind. I don’t know my own feelings. I want to fly and feel the wind in my face. I want to dance the night away and let go of all this pain. I want a kiss and forget the world. Life is unpredictable.
“The past is history, the future is a mystery, the present is a gift,...”
Tumblr
Is like my very own astrology or doctor I swear. Everytime I go on, my two SFL just has something new for me too gain in life. I love it. And like both of their recents tumblrs I feel like I have been getting stronger everyday since that day, I have one life to live and to love, why waste it on someone who doesn’t give that same effect back towards you. I’ve been stopping myself this...
Slow songs
I barely listen too them now because all the lyrics are the same. Its always about love, losing love, finding love, etc. Just makes you sad. Weird though, now that I hear it, no memories come too mind. It’s like he was never in my life. As sad as that sounds, maybe letting go was the best thing too do. When I’m ready I’ll let you know. Now I just want too be done with school and...
The end
joshyeeeee (11:52:18 PM): Dont be afraid, listen to your heart, and go with what you believe. no matter how much it hurts, if it feel right go for it. live your life. try not to focus on the past, focus on the present, because the presnt will shape your future. use your past to learn from your mistakes. Be all you can be. The only person that can beat you is, YOU. So dont fall to yourself. get...
“Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.”
Ne-Yo
write lyrics about my world, my story, my life. Desiree has one of the most beautiful blessed family in this world. So much love and joy that I’ve haven’t felt for a very long time. Disney makes me happy. Rain hides my tears. I’ll be waiting patiently right here for you.
Stop and listen
to the things around you when you, drive, walk, sitt, etc. and feel that emotion it gives you. Life keeps surprsing me. Aww my SFL Maricel went to LA, she seems happy. Its nice too see that and she has weird dreams of me and her boyfriend. AWKWARD BABY TURTLE MOMENT. Remember that back in summer 2008 Maricel? Haha. Damn, can you believe summer is just in a few months again? Well I’m just...
I wish upon a star
A beautiful night too lay out and look at the bright stars. Sometimes when you think about life, you start remembering the past, which then leads on too what could of happened in the future. Why can’t we ever think about now? Maybe because we’re not happy where we stand and praying, hoping one day someone will come into our life and change that. Even though you know you’re the...
“We grow up wanting the things we don’t have and not appreciating what we...”
Pinky promise
She’s my little baby. I look over her, praying each night for her to have a better future because she deserves it. I’ve seen her cry, it hurts. I’ve seen her laugh and smile, its the best feeling in the world. Well at least one of the best feelings. I’m trying my best to be there for her before, I don’t know if anything did happened. We have our secret spot. My...
Sniffles
Again? YES. Thanks too my SFL Desiree. All good in the neighborhood. SFLs finally caught up with one another today over AIM. I love them, because of them they give me HOPE. We definitely have different stories however, they can relate to one another. I’ve realize today everyone has their times in life. And that its our decision to take that chance or not. Maricel has had hers, and Desiree is...
Can't breathe
Stupid Desiree got me sick again. Haha. My mom’s made me realize a lot and she does relate to me in a lot of ways I never imagined. Right now I’m learning to let go and let time tell.
“Love yourself before loving others”
Emo much
Blah. What is wrong with me?! Who am I kidding I know whats wrong..
I hate this part right here
Awesome song by Pussycat Dolls I must say. So valentines shmalentine. I worked at the theaters this morning. Grumpy people today and too many people. Been chilln with THE Desiree since 3. Fun stuff. Strikes arcade, LB, McDs, Gabes, and now we’re baking cookies! Well she is. HAHA. Met a cutie ;) HOLLAAA HOLLAAA HOLLAAA!
Cough cough
Thats all you hear coming from my cousins and I. So we woke up decided to ditch school, pressure me too join them. Longboard and played at the park. Now we’re at my mom’s house playing ddr. Its Friday 13th. So lazy and tired. I have work tonight and thats my friday night as always. Peace out homie G.
Too many ?s
Boyfriend? No boyfriend. Like someone? I don’t think so. Do I? I’ve never been this complicated before! Feelings for him still? Maybe. Of course I’m always going to have that feeling for him, no matter how much I want it all gone. New crushes? A lot. Can I see myself with them? No, I can’t. I’m very picky. I’m scared to get hurt again. I don’t know if I...
